Still Tired

I assumed everyone was always tired. It was just that other people where better at pushing past it. They worked harder. They were stronger. Obviously I was lazy. If I would only get up and get going, I would feel better. But, it never seemed to really work. Sure for a short period of time I'd wouldn't feel so tired. As long as I kept moving, it was easier to ignore the tiredness. Once I stopped, even for a short break, the tiredness was still there and it usually took great effort to get up and keep going.

It was that way since I was a kid. I finally found a doctor who not only listens to me and believes me, but he also had information from a sleep study that backs it up. Just knowing that someone believes me is such a high. There's actually a possibility I'm not the lazy slug I've always believed myself to be. I don't have words to describe how exciting it is.

I saw a sleep doctor previously when I started having problems keeping my eyes open while driving. According to that sleep doctor, I had sleep apnea. Never mind that the apneas mostly happened when I was awake and trying to relax. Never mind that I don't snore or that in 20 years my spouse has never noticed anything resembling apnea. Never mind that the doctor wouldn't listen to any of this. Oddly enough, this last sleep study showed zero episodes of apnea -- something I'm told is quite unusual. My current sleep doctor was shocked to hear that I was recommended for CPAP.

The current diagnosis is either idiopathic hypersomnia or narcolepsy. I'm told the latter would be easier when it comes to insurance covering prescriptions, but we'll need further tests and indicators. Either way, it may come down to me taking amphetamines. Ironically, this is precisely what I did when the only help offered me was CPAP. I don't look forward to going back there, but right now I have problems staying awake even with drinking several cups of coffee and a six pack of Vault soda each day. Vault is supposed to have twice the caffeine of a cup of coffee or the same amount of Mountain Dew. Even with that I need at least one hour-long nap a day, and by 9pm I'm ready to turn-in.

Someday I hope not to be.....Still Tired.