Forgot

I forgot to take the Klonopin last evening. I can't tell the difference between yesterday morning and this morning except that I had more coffee today and I fell more awake and energetic.

I Expected More of a Difference

I can't tell any difference in my tiredness from yesterday. I'm puzzled.

Definitely More Tired

It hit later this morning. It hasn't been as bad as my worst times, but I've definitely been more tired. I tried an hour nap in the late morning, but I woke up not feeling any better.

Not Much of A Difference

I woke-up quite a bit more last night, but I'm not surprised at that. What does surprise me is that I don't feel much different this morning. That may change throughout the day. I'm still planning to get a refill on my script of Klonopin.

Tired but productive

Waking up was excruciatingly hard this morning. It was one of those times when I had crease lines everywhere because I'd been sleeping so hard and in one place so long.

The day was reasonably productive. I was tired most, if not all, of it, but I kept myself busy and wouldn't allow myself to spend too much time sitting down. Coffee definitely helped. I did fall asleep at lunch. It was more like I chose to stop fighting it because it was getting too difficult. I crossed my hands in front of me and put my forehead on my hands and slept.

It was one of those naps where I felt aware of everything that was happening/being said around me and yet I was also sleeping. It's hard to describe, really. It used to be the way I commonly napped, but it hasn't been that common lately. When I wake up, I'm aware sort-of in the back of my mind, what went on, but I can't recall it until someone mentions something that was discussed and then I can remember it. Like I said, it's hard to describe. To make this even more muddled, this same sort of thing happens to me when I play puzzle-type games like Sudoku, Solitaire or Bejeweled. While playing I have a tendency to tell myself/make-up a story. I don't say it out loud, I just think it. It often occurs that afterward that although I know I told myself a story, I can't recall anything about it. Nothing. It's a bizarre feeling.

I forgot to get a refill of my Klonopin today, so I have none this evening. I am tired now, though, so hopefully the habit-forming thing won't bite me in the butt tonight. If so, at least I have plenty of good reading material around. *grin*

Oh, I had one more thought. I often describe how I feel as tired, rather than sleepy. I've found that I'm not terribly good at recognising signals from my body. When I say tired, I mean my system wants me to stop doing whatever it is. Usually when I do this, I find that if I just sit then I'll fall asleep, even with the TV on, even talking to someone, even reading.

Unsure

I'm still unsure whether the Klonopin is doing any good. I may be a bit less sleepy/tired. It certainly isn't gone. Yesterday (Monday) in the mid-morning, I couldn't keep myself awake and wound up taking a nap on the sofa in the family room while the kids played loudly in the room. I slept for two hours. I'm usually a very light sleeper and would have trouble falling asleep under those condition. Staying asleep for two hours is definitely odd.

Motivated

Surprise company (and the accompanying fear/adrenaline) is a good motivator. That was the only reason it was a productive day. Other than that I had no energy. This is a common theme.

Not As Hard Waking-Up

I took the Klonopin early again last night. This morning it wasn't as hard to wake-up. I don't know whether to credit it to taking Klonopin early or the two hour nap I took yesterday afternoon.

It's been a hard week with lot of unusual stuff going on with workmen around all day every day. Just in general, my anxiety level has been raised. I'm ready for some calm.

No Energy

The title pretty much says it all. I've tried eating a bit, caffeine, and moving around. I'm not sure I can make it through the afternoon without a nap.

This is change of no longer having energy is disturbing. The only difference that I can tell (beyond the workmen) is that I finally received a refill of an SSRI last afternoon. I'll need to review the past few days to see if this lack of energy really did start with restarting this drug. I don't believe so. In fact, I believe I ran out of the SSRI after I started the Klonopin. I hope this isn't yet another drug that helps for a while and then becomes ineffective.

Ugh

Even after an afternoon nap, I was asleep again before 5:30pm. By that time, I was at the point of having absolutely no energy. I shuffled rather than walked. Concentration was impossible. I slept until 7:30pm and was asleep again by 10:30pm. Part of the sleepiness was certainly that my stomach didn't feel well. I think another part was having to deal with workman working on the house, the dog, and all the various complications.

This morning, I'm tired and sleepy (and my stomach hurts again). There won't be any workmen here today, so hopefully that will ease a bit of the stress. I've not had my coffee yet. Given the way my stomach feels, I'm not sure coffee is a good idea. We'll have to see.

Afternoon Nap

Awoke feeling rather slow from an hour plus nap. I do feel more rested, but not very capable. As usually happens, my legs had RLS-type symptoms as I was trying to fall asleep. This rarely happened before I started the first round of medications (Requip & Mirapex). This is something I definitely do not like.

Normally Difficult Morning, Yawning by 12:30p

It was a busy morning -- a good busy morning. I remembered coffee and it helped. Now that it's afternoon, though, I'm a bit done. My list of things that MUST be done before tomorrow is long. I'll need to find a way to fit a nap in somewhere before driving is required.

Evening Nap

After a busy day, I took an hour and a half nap after dinner. I don't anticipate it causing any problems with my normal nighttime sleeping. I took the Klonopin around 7:30p, and I'll take my decongestant just before I go to sleep. Hopefully that will allay some of the troubles with jumpy legs.

Hard Time Waking Up, Then Angry

I took the Klonopin around 9 o'clock last night along with my decongestant. My legs did feel a bit "jumpy" but certainly didn't keep me from falling asleep at 10:30pm.

I seemed to dream more than the usual amount last night. A few I had trouble figuring out whether they were dreams or whether they were real. It made for a hard morning to wake-up. It wasn't only being sleepy. I felt slow -- thinking felt hard and took a lot of uncomfortable effort.

I'm quite angry this morning. There is some "stuff" going on, but the anger is all out of proportion.

Memory-wise, I don't think things have improved. Several mornings I've felt sleepy (and tired) and remembered that other mornings I didn't feel that way. It seemed odd that there was such a difference. The thought that a cup or two of coffee was the reason never crossed my mind, even after spending time in the kitchen cooking or doing dishes. I have no idea how I didn't think of it.

Late Night w/ Liberal Imbibing

I forgot to take the Klonopin until 11:30pm yesterday. By that time I'd had several alcoholic beverages. It seems odd, but this morning I wasn't overly tired at all. In fact, I was less tired and had a much easier time getting ready for church. After church, however, it was the typical tiredness and a multiple hour nap (and no lunch).

Mixed Bag

I did take a nap on the day of the last post. It was less than 30 minutes and ended very abruptly with a phone call. I didn't feel any more rested afterward.

Yesterday found me very tired and sleepy by noon. It was a stressful morning, but notI tried to nap shortly afternoon but frequent, sporatic, intense itching kept waking me up. I changed clothes, tried a new pillow, changed location (bed to floor) but nothing helped. The itching persisted for the rest of the day. I have bruises and indications of broken blood vessles from me scratching. I still itch like this today. This isn't a new thing for me, but it hasn't been nearly this bad in close to a year.

After not being able to nap yesterday, I was an emotional wreck. I drank a lot of caffeine in the form of Diet Dew (more than a six-pack) and several cups (mugs) of coffee, even late into the night. I didn'thave any problem sleeping afterwards.

I haven't been particularly tired or sleepy today until now. I've not done much today, either.

Improvement Holds Steady

With this, I'm happy. The fact that the effectiveness of the medication has not seemed to diminish is comforting. I may not like the idea of taking Klonopin, but it certainly has improved my quality of life, even with the morning tiredness and necessity of coffee.

I do still tend to get very tired and feeling weak in the afternoon, but it's not as extreme. Today, I sat down around 2pm and realized just how tired I really was. I decided to punt on a few items on my checklist. The more I sit, the more I think taking a nap may happen. It's been several days since I've taken one, though.

My voice started to sound funny yesterday. At times my voice was little more than a whisper or a really, really squeaky, freaky sound. I may be getting a cold or it may be an increased need for the allergy medication that I've still not received from the mail-order pharmacy. The twice daily decongestant and Nasonex usually help with this sort of thing, but not right now.

Still Feeling More Awake, Active and Capable

All good things. There always seems to be a lot of work to do, too, however it doesn't seem as overwhelming as before. Due to various complications, I'm out of about half my normal medications and have been for the past week. Even with missing needed medications, I'm still able to function well. I'd definitely say Klonopin is helping. I do need to have a cup of coffee in the morning to start the day, but I don't require a constant stream of caffeine to make it through the day.