That's what I'm chalking it up to. And hoping. After a cup of coffee and two Vaults, I was in Slow Walk Mode. It's better than Shuffle Mode. I listened to the sermon on the radio in the car. At least, I listened to part of it before I fell asleep. I've really enjoyed/learned/benefited a lot from the pastor's current series on Romans. I very much wanted to hear today's message.
On the way home, I drank another Vault. Once home, I went directly upstairs and napped for two hours. I'm still tired, but I need to be awake some of today. Hopefully I can catch-up on some sleep and get back on track this next week.
I'm to the place where I very much want to figure out how to get rid of this sleepiness. I don't know that I've really been here before. I've been to this point of constant tiredness/sleepiness before, but I didn't think anything could be done so I just plodded along. I've had enough of missing so much of life. Of course, there's always the possibility that there's not a lot that can be done, but given past experience with stimulants I think there probably is an answer, even if it's drugging myself awake. In truth, that's what I've been doing so far with caffeine. It's just that caffeine has become ineffective and now I probably need something stronger. It strikes me that perhaps if I went off caffeine for a while, to let my system reset, caffeine might become more effective again. I'd even be willing to try that if I could find a way to plod through a few days without being sentient.
One more thing I probably should record is the weird jumping/twitching/jerking/whatever I found myself doing toward the end of my nap after church. It wasn't an RLS thing, it was more a jerking like happens when I suddenly awaken with the sensation of falling, except minus the sensation.
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